God's Blessings

After a stressful day coming home and ranting and raving about it in my post...I must say God has brought me at peace. I admit work was hard...I was a bit irritated with people coming into work but then hanging out in the break room instead of getting to work. In the last 2 hours I've completely come at peace and this is how and why.

1. I received a reply from mama D and a few things came up that I had no idea she was feeling. After a few tears and deep breaths...I began to feel better. I miss her so much and love her more than I believe anyone will ever know. She really helped me a lot of times...and if she could have...she would have locked me away so nothing bad would ever happen to me. When I told her I was leaving town she just seemed not to care and I was a bit hurt...but that was talked about too. Things make sense now...I am glad we're talking again like we used to...I can't wait to see her again.

2. Emily got online this evening after I got home and I got to talk to her for a bit again. Although it was mostly me talking about Donna's email...I enjoy just spending time with her. I am so thankful that she's always there to listen to me and lend a shoulder when I need it. She always seems to put a smile on my face at the perfect times....I hope I do the same for her.

3. After I sent my reply back to Donna and said farewell to Emily...I went into praise and worship. Something that totally hit the spot. The love I felt from my 'family' and friends was awesome...but to feel it from God as well...PRICELESS!!! I spent about an hour just singing out praises to him and thanking him for the day all the good and the bad and helping me get through it. A God...our God...my God...would take the time to sit down beside me and let me cry on his shoulder and relieve myself of all the stress from the day.

I have to admit...I have some of the greatest friends ever. From near to far spread through out the whole country...some I have grown up with some I have grown close to. Some I have had sleep overs with...some I have only dreamed of meeting. In the end they are all the same with unconditional love and always there for me when I need it. I say I have a lot of best friends they're all too great to just name one of them the best. But I do indeed have a best friend, his name is Jesus. He's the ultimate and spends everyday with me. Sometimes he feels near sometimes he feels so far away due to overwhelming feelings of the day. He raised me from a babe and always had His hand guiding me towards his perfect will of my life. He has watched over me when I was awake and fast asleep, as I dream of the day when I will be with Him in paradise as he promised me.

I am so blessed to have the friends I do and to have God still standing by my side. I thought he would have given up on me a long time ago, but he never has and never will. He is my strength when I am weak He is the treasure that I seek, He is my all in all!