What is it that defines you today? Is it the brand new sports car you just bought that sits out in the driveway for everyone to see? Are you the one that lives in the big 'ritz house' down on 3rd Ave? I bet you're the one that works at that bank right?
What if...we were defind by something greater? Grant it this would mean the entire society would have to get a new way of thinking, but follow me on this. If your 'friends' could describe you with ONE phrase, what would it be? Would it be something of 'physical well being' so to speak, or would it be something of the spirit? Would you be one of the few mentioned above, or would you be the one of a humble spirit?
I know for me usually I am defined by the southern bell. Which isn't always bad and can be a good thing once they explain what they mean. Just something to think about today. Are you the one losing control in chaos, or are you the one at peace in the midst of chaos. Some people say chaos is not good...but come on admit it...it's BOUND to happen at some point or another, especially if you have kids.
This is mostly ramble once again but bottom line is...What Defines You Today?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
Dreaming of TX
So last night I had a dream of tx. Guess who's in tx?? The infamous mama g herself Corrine! Oh man it was so weird and yet fun and I didn't want to wake up. We were on electric scooters I had a red one and mama g had a blue one and we were leaving what I am assuming would have been her home and she was taking me to see Rose and Anna. Well at the end of the drive way was what looked to be a little well, but instead of water there were flowers. There was a sign that said This represents the blooming friendship with Debbie Waters. The other side of the well was empty but looked as if it was being prepared for another batch of flowers and I asked what was that side for...and she said me! Then we headed to see Rose and Anna while talking about Third Day and Decemberadio and how we could get more people involved kind of thing. Weird but it was cool...I didn't wanna wake up. :)
Note to Mama G: I hope we have as good as time in real life as we do in my dreams. :)
Note to Mama G: I hope we have as good as time in real life as we do in my dreams. :)
How Great Is Our God
Last night was a pretty good night, I was probably a 6-7 on my pain scale...but God's blessings still poured through and the pain subsided. Last night I was hurt and I admit a bit angry that my family has yet to call me to check on me or give me any update with the 'grams situation'. I don't know what to do any more and I pretty much just wanna give up. So I called some people for some advice after talking to mike about it, and of course the only 2 opinions I really wanted were Rose and Anna.
Rose was with MJ and forgot her charger so I knew I was outta luck there. I called Anna and left a message, and we played phone tag a bit lol. Found Anna online and finally 'met' Mike S. Oh buddy I don't think I was expecting that experience. One of my biggest fears throughout my whole life has been Failure. Something I didn't want anyone to know, I wanted to keep my cool so to speak. Well last night for some reason Mike S. tells me that I can't be afraid of failure. Like where the heck does that come from and why is this dude telling me this. This dude was pretty brave to say something like that to me lol.
Any other time I would have gotten angry for someone saying something like that, but I just sat there awe struck in disbelief that he just said those words. Can't let the fear of failure hold you back. If you fall down then get back up and try again. Everyone fails but it's how you react to that is what matters. Hmmm mre of my own words thrown in my face, but I needed to hear it. I am not here to put anyone down so please don't misread my next paragraph.
My biological family, when I lived in NC I constantly lived in fear of some sort. Fear that I would never be good enough, Fear that I would do something wrong. I would be so scared that I wouldn't make a poster for my room right that I didn't even make it, how sad is that. Constantly feeling the pressure that I needed to be perfect. I am sure maybe my parents tried to do the best that could, with the knowledge they had. After all, for the most part they did keep me alive 18 years right? Not until the past year or so have I experienced unconditional love and I am still trying to get used to it.
Here's fear gone too far, when you fear that you won't love someone 'right' so you decide not to love at all. When you hide your feelings from those you really and truly care about because you feel it's wrong. I didn't realize how bad I had it till last night. I had a great time talking with Anna and Mike last night and a few things were brought to light and today I have more peace. Last night their daughter Jennifer even asked how my chiropractic stuff was going. I felt walls going up fast for some reason...no need to worry the foundation was rocky and it all fell down lol. I have found a love I have been searching for for a loooong time. A place I feel I can be myself and I won't be put down or criticized or loved any less because of it.
Last night both me and Anna had dreams of me being in TX. Confirmations are still coming in from different people. That's why I am now announcing that we are moving to TX begining of 2009. We do not have an exact location laid out yet all of that will come in time I know. But I feel God wants me to be where I will be edified in His will...and I know I'll receive that in TX. Me and Mike P. are both excited about this move and look forward to all God has in store for us both.
Side Note: I will not be calling my family. I feel that only more hurt and pain will come. But I will be writing a letter to them this week and say everything that I would say if we were on the phone. Thanks for your love support and prayers. It's good to be a part of the Schnable/Richter family. :)
Rose was with MJ and forgot her charger so I knew I was outta luck there. I called Anna and left a message, and we played phone tag a bit lol. Found Anna online and finally 'met' Mike S. Oh buddy I don't think I was expecting that experience. One of my biggest fears throughout my whole life has been Failure. Something I didn't want anyone to know, I wanted to keep my cool so to speak. Well last night for some reason Mike S. tells me that I can't be afraid of failure. Like where the heck does that come from and why is this dude telling me this. This dude was pretty brave to say something like that to me lol.
Any other time I would have gotten angry for someone saying something like that, but I just sat there awe struck in disbelief that he just said those words. Can't let the fear of failure hold you back. If you fall down then get back up and try again. Everyone fails but it's how you react to that is what matters. Hmmm mre of my own words thrown in my face, but I needed to hear it. I am not here to put anyone down so please don't misread my next paragraph.
My biological family, when I lived in NC I constantly lived in fear of some sort. Fear that I would never be good enough, Fear that I would do something wrong. I would be so scared that I wouldn't make a poster for my room right that I didn't even make it, how sad is that. Constantly feeling the pressure that I needed to be perfect. I am sure maybe my parents tried to do the best that could, with the knowledge they had. After all, for the most part they did keep me alive 18 years right? Not until the past year or so have I experienced unconditional love and I am still trying to get used to it.
Here's fear gone too far, when you fear that you won't love someone 'right' so you decide not to love at all. When you hide your feelings from those you really and truly care about because you feel it's wrong. I didn't realize how bad I had it till last night. I had a great time talking with Anna and Mike last night and a few things were brought to light and today I have more peace. Last night their daughter Jennifer even asked how my chiropractic stuff was going. I felt walls going up fast for some reason...no need to worry the foundation was rocky and it all fell down lol. I have found a love I have been searching for for a loooong time. A place I feel I can be myself and I won't be put down or criticized or loved any less because of it.
Last night both me and Anna had dreams of me being in TX. Confirmations are still coming in from different people. That's why I am now announcing that we are moving to TX begining of 2009. We do not have an exact location laid out yet all of that will come in time I know. But I feel God wants me to be where I will be edified in His will...and I know I'll receive that in TX. Me and Mike P. are both excited about this move and look forward to all God has in store for us both.
Side Note: I will not be calling my family. I feel that only more hurt and pain will come. But I will be writing a letter to them this week and say everything that I would say if we were on the phone. Thanks for your love support and prayers. It's good to be a part of the Schnable/Richter family. :)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Amazing Grace
There I sat 13 of age,
Full of rage.
Broken hearted
My life oh so parted.
We sung Amazing Grace.
You taught me how to play,
Oh the peace upon your face.
How I wished longer you'd stay.
Light of hope shining near,
No longer will I live in fear.
Onward I go I won't give in,
I know in the end I will win.
We sung Amazing Grace.
You taught me how to play,
Oh the peace upon your face.
How I thank God you stayed.
In that moment time stood still,
Prayers come thru of God's perfect will.
You're homecoming day was now here,
That sweet song I pray you now hear.
We sing Amazing Grace.
Now I stand and play.
Oh the peace upon your face
Now you're home forever to stay.
Full of rage.
Broken hearted
My life oh so parted.
We sung Amazing Grace.
You taught me how to play,
Oh the peace upon your face.
How I wished longer you'd stay.
Light of hope shining near,
No longer will I live in fear.
Onward I go I won't give in,
I know in the end I will win.
We sung Amazing Grace.
You taught me how to play,
Oh the peace upon your face.
How I thank God you stayed.
In that moment time stood still,
Prayers come thru of God's perfect will.
You're homecoming day was now here,
That sweet song I pray you now hear.
We sing Amazing Grace.
Now I stand and play.
Oh the peace upon your face
Now you're home forever to stay.
What Is Love?
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
This is not just some words printed in a book. This is not just some webster definition. This is what the creator of love has said love is. Some people amaze me how they can say, Well I love them when I first met them but I don't love them any more. Or I don't know if I love them like I used to. Love is a lot of things, but one thing it is not is unsure. You can not just turn TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE on and off like a light. Either you love or you don't, there is no in between. To care for one and to love one is two different things.
I believe we throw the word Love around as if it was a softball or something. Should we hear LOVE more often, YES. BUT we should know what TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is before you use the word. Once you tell someone you love them no matter who they are I guarantee they expect, hope and pray that you mean it forever. Love should never be unsure, never a fight, but something definitely worth fighting for.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
This is not just some words printed in a book. This is not just some webster definition. This is what the creator of love has said love is. Some people amaze me how they can say, Well I love them when I first met them but I don't love them any more. Or I don't know if I love them like I used to. Love is a lot of things, but one thing it is not is unsure. You can not just turn TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE on and off like a light. Either you love or you don't, there is no in between. To care for one and to love one is two different things.
I believe we throw the word Love around as if it was a softball or something. Should we hear LOVE more often, YES. BUT we should know what TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is before you use the word. Once you tell someone you love them no matter who they are I guarantee they expect, hope and pray that you mean it forever. Love should never be unsure, never a fight, but something definitely worth fighting for.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
For Your Glory
Amazing song by Decemberadio and one that came to my mind this morning on my run.
When I was in High School I was the fastest runner in my class. One day we were running and instead of having the attitude of 'I am gonna run from my problems', I said 'I am gonna run to God'. That day I ran the mile in 7.02 minutes, A record I have yet to break. This isn't about setting records or running, just follow me on this.
That change in attitude is what had me more positive results and I am sure of it. When we do anything for God and for HIS glory not for our own selfish needs, ever notice the difference in your results? That one day I got so much praise from my teacher and classmates...they were in shock, and my attitude when back to selfish needs. I wanted more of that praise I wanted to be the best...and my time got worse and worse over the years.
The mindset of God will take us further than our dreams ever will. His dreams for us are always sweeter than our own. Take Mondays for example...Wake up with the attitude of Oh God it's Monday lets just get it over with, we've hindered God already and the blessings He has in store for the day. Wake up and say Good morning God it's Monday lets get this started! I guarantee you weather it's monday or whatever day, our Attitudes determine our outcomes. This sort of ties in with the power of our words...but I thought I'd share with you guys.
Don't make it hard either it's really simple...everything you do do for God's glory. It's all in your attitude...Positive Attitudes = Positive Outcomes...Try it. Our day to day jobs whether it's working in a nice cozy office or cleaning sewers...do it for God's glory and you will be blessed. People are always watching and they'll catch on, this stuff is contagious. ;)
When I was in High School I was the fastest runner in my class. One day we were running and instead of having the attitude of 'I am gonna run from my problems', I said 'I am gonna run to God'. That day I ran the mile in 7.02 minutes, A record I have yet to break. This isn't about setting records or running, just follow me on this.
That change in attitude is what had me more positive results and I am sure of it. When we do anything for God and for HIS glory not for our own selfish needs, ever notice the difference in your results? That one day I got so much praise from my teacher and classmates...they were in shock, and my attitude when back to selfish needs. I wanted more of that praise I wanted to be the best...and my time got worse and worse over the years.
The mindset of God will take us further than our dreams ever will. His dreams for us are always sweeter than our own. Take Mondays for example...Wake up with the attitude of Oh God it's Monday lets just get it over with, we've hindered God already and the blessings He has in store for the day. Wake up and say Good morning God it's Monday lets get this started! I guarantee you weather it's monday or whatever day, our Attitudes determine our outcomes. This sort of ties in with the power of our words...but I thought I'd share with you guys.
Don't make it hard either it's really simple...everything you do do for God's glory. It's all in your attitude...Positive Attitudes = Positive Outcomes...Try it. Our day to day jobs whether it's working in a nice cozy office or cleaning sewers...do it for God's glory and you will be blessed. People are always watching and they'll catch on, this stuff is contagious. ;)
Monday, September 22, 2008
Slow Down
Yes it's a great Third Day song but I am not here to talk about Third Day or their song Slow Down.
This will be short and sweet. So many times we go in prayer asking God to give us patience, give us peace, give us understanding, give us wisdom. Ask and you shall receive...right? Yes, God keeps His promises; Luke 11:9 Ask and it shall be given. I talk to so many people and even find myself saying the same thing, I asked and God didn't give it to me.
God gives in His timing and in His way. Look at it this way, there's a grape vine and there's a dried grape. You have 2 choices, fill the grape with juice (someway some how I am no farmer, just go with me here) and the grape will be fine for a couple days. Or you can choose to put a little more effort into it and nurture the vine and bring it back to health so to speak and the grape will be healthy for much much longer.
I feel God works in the same way. He doesn't want to just fill us up and send us on our way so that in a week or two we run back to Him asking for the same thing again, weather it be patience, wisdom, understanding, rest or whatever. I feel God wants to nurture us and embed in us His word and teachings so that we can go out a month from now and testify what He has done for us and hopefully be a blessing to others. Instead of just giving us whatever we ask for He puts us in circumstances in which we have to put a little effort forward and learn to apply it and therefore gain that which we have asked for.
Hope this makes sense and it blesses your life, let me know what you think. :)
This will be short and sweet. So many times we go in prayer asking God to give us patience, give us peace, give us understanding, give us wisdom. Ask and you shall receive...right? Yes, God keeps His promises; Luke 11:9 Ask and it shall be given. I talk to so many people and even find myself saying the same thing, I asked and God didn't give it to me.
God gives in His timing and in His way. Look at it this way, there's a grape vine and there's a dried grape. You have 2 choices, fill the grape with juice (someway some how I am no farmer, just go with me here) and the grape will be fine for a couple days. Or you can choose to put a little more effort into it and nurture the vine and bring it back to health so to speak and the grape will be healthy for much much longer.
I feel God works in the same way. He doesn't want to just fill us up and send us on our way so that in a week or two we run back to Him asking for the same thing again, weather it be patience, wisdom, understanding, rest or whatever. I feel God wants to nurture us and embed in us His word and teachings so that we can go out a month from now and testify what He has done for us and hopefully be a blessing to others. Instead of just giving us whatever we ask for He puts us in circumstances in which we have to put a little effort forward and learn to apply it and therefore gain that which we have asked for.
Hope this makes sense and it blesses your life, let me know what you think. :)
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