Last night God revealed to me some hard truths. As I've said before this journey in Texas has not all been easy. I am the kind of person that will do whatever it takes to make someone happy and when I don't suceed I feel like a failure. Last night I had a few words with a really wise woman (take one guess). I told her how I think she's amazing and how this past week I've realized how much I don't appreciate her the way I should. Of course she turns my focus back to God replying that it's all HIM and nothing to do with her. She's right I know she is.
Anyway, last night I made a minor yet stupid change on my facebook. I wanted to change a part of who I was I wanted to compromise who I was and how I really felt to make others happy. It wasn't until after the conversation with the wise woman and the loud booming voice from God that I realized I made a mistake. I KNOW I can't make everyone happy it's just not possible, but BELIEVING it is a different story. Right now that is what I am dealing with is trying to believe that I can't make everyone happy nor is it my 'job' to make everyone happy.
I should be more concerned with am I making GOD happy, and if I am making HIM happy that's all that matters the rest will fall into place. So for anyone and everyone reading this when you're in your prayer time, I'd greatly appreciate a prayer as this is a tough one for me. I love to see people happy but I am coming to realize that there's only one person that can bring true joy and happiness and His name is Jesus. I need to stop trying to play Holy Ghost Jr. and let God do what He's best at.
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Loved your reference to playing Holy Ghost, Jr. Sometimes that self-centered part of us shines through. It is so easy to get caught up the day to day world. Stay focused and you will do the right thing. You are so caught up in a new life and trying to make everyone else happy, don't forget about Tracey. Take your time with decisions like Tracey "who". I saw the change, but really wasn't sure why you did it. You will figure it out-when God is ready for you to figure it out and not before!
ReplyDeleteThis is a huge yet hard lesson to learn!! I hear echos in my head of another wise woman I know telling me over and over and over again "it is not your job to do that in their life--that is Gods job--you need to allow God to do that for them" in another way. It is so hard for us to learn that God is capable of doing for others exactly what He is capable of doing for us. It is the whole turning it from head knowledge into action that's hard.
ReplyDeleteRemember--God "is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us" (Eph 3:20) He is going to change you in a powerful way into the woman He desires you to be!! And guess what--Hes doing that to them to if they have trusted Him! I will most definitely be praying this for you. I get so excited when I see God working so powerfully in others!!
Tracey,
ReplyDeleteBe who God made you to be. Sometimes that takes time to figure out. I think I'm finally figuring it out (and I'm almost 36). It does take time. He made you so special. You just want so badly to be loved and accepted and affirmed! I understand, I have been there. Still am some days, but God has shown me that HE loves and accepts me, and because He sees me through Jesus, I am right at rain, er, righteous in His eyes! You do share the joy of the Lord with others.......don't stop that, PLEASE! He uses people to help us grow, just as God to show you in loving ways that you can perceive and fully grasp. He's great at that!!! And, about complimenting Anna, Jesus lives in her, so compliment away! We are in Christ, so it's even okay for her to accept all of that love that you so long to give. It's all a process and journey.
Hang in there, my friend, God ADORES you!!! And, you make Him VERY happy; He sees you through Jesus' blood, and you are HIS CHILD.
Make that 'right as rain'.
ReplyDeleteMelissa I love you woman! Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I am the Daughter of the King!
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