Influences

Well I thought I'd talk about influences in random language of course. Everyone always says that there's life of death in the tongue...Agreed. Everyone always says that actions speak louder than words...Agreed. So wouldn't that mean there's life and death in our actions more so than in our words? To say one thing and do another is obviously contradicting.

When our friends are going through hard times (those that claim to be Christ followers), would nomally say Trust God, Lean on Him. I have heard that so many times in my life and I am a visual learner, so I watched these people. Most of them yeh, they truly believed it and their actions made their words true. Some not so much so.

Now I have 2 younger sisters and 2 cousins younger than me (more than that, but those I have contact with). Everyday I watch myself more and more in my actions, whether they are physically with me or not. I have made plenty of mistakes in my life, and I pray my sisters and cousins never have to go through what I did. Now that I am of legal age, I feel at times temptation is a bit harder. When talking to mom or aunt shoo shoo whoever, I always say if my sisters every did this or that I would be really hurt/disappointed/angry. Please note my sisters are very smart and I learn more from them than they do from me I am sure. Now that I have them and especially Derek, when on the phone I watch my words more carefully, although it's speaking, it's still an action. Get my point?

From the jobs I choose to work at, places I choose to hang out at, I've come to the point in life where I've hit a maturity and realized life isn't all about me. There comes a time we have to drop our selfish thinking and ways and think...how is this going to affect my family/friends. Yes, we all have free will, but we all have those we look up to as well. Man will always let us down we're not perfect, but because we're not perfect I feel we look for 'examples' to be set in places that probably shouldn't. I honestly do not feel that it's wrong to look up to someone, as long as we remember that they are only human and they are going to mess up from time to time.

I want my sisters and or cousins...whoever...to feel they can come and talk to me, rather than feel they can not because of the road I choose to travel down. Bad 'habits'/lifestyles, are hard to change and we can't do it alone we need God to help us live a better lifestyle. But we must first come to a point where we realize that the world does not revolve us. What kind of lifestyle are you living? Does it bring life, or does it bring death? How long will you choose to wander around in the desert before you say enough is enough it's time to get serious?

...I am just sayin'...