Sunday and Monday

Sunday started off well I woke up at 7 am with a mission in mind. After the talk with Debbie Saturday night a BRILLIANT idea popped into my head. (check out facebook for more info) So I go for a early morning run up to the store and Mike meets me there with the truck we run to walmart to get supplies and head back home and I get to work. I am not joking or exaggerating when I say I worked ALL day on my 'Murray project'. I dressed up as a guy with the name of Murray and decided to make myself Debbie and Corrine's fan club manager lol. Yeh, talk about weird...but I had a lot of fun and I got brownies outta the deal...AND I gave two people (at least) a good laugh and that was worth it all in itself. I also started a fan club on facebook for them haha. It wasn't suppose to be serious but so many people have jumped on and so I am just gonna leave it up. Those two women deserve that and more.



Monday started off fabulous. Joan made a fan club all about me lol...I thought it was really sweet and thoughtful. Weird thing...people actually have joined in!!! Most people would probably look at it like ummm ok whatever...but to me it meant a lot and was really special to read everyone's comments and such. Work started off ok but then Jamie called in and everything went into chaos. I was moved to fuel Sue came in and worked grocery (I plea the 5th on stating my feelings on that), and I got nothing accomplished today. I felt horrible because of it. Monday is truck day and I have it all planned out how I'll do what and when. Oh well that's life I suppose. I just had to make the best outta the sitaution. We got a lot of rain and some snow today and I guess it made people crabby. It's like everyone had an attitude with me today I was like sheesh what did i do??? Thinking back to my fan club cheered me up though and made the time fly by a little faster.

Today is my one year anniversary of being with Mike in person...and one year of being abuse free! It feels so good to be set free from the bondage and chains it had on my life. I am a VICTOR of abuse PRAISE GOD!!!

I am home now and just trying to relax...it's a bit cold. I have something that I want to write about Debbie and Corrine I just hope I can find the words to say which would be a miracle in itself. Anywho off to find some chocolate and caffiene then to do some more writing.

Today has been a good day. It was good to just be able to relax and not have to worry about going into work. I've just spent the day taking it easy hanging out with the gomers and such. I walked over to Jeri's house today and spent about an hour just chatting with her about anything and everything. We're making some plans to get together in the near future when I start getting some money coming back in...I can't wait.

Ok so check it out dude...we just opened our 12-pack of coke that we bought this morning and there was some kind of weird substance in there. We have no clue what it was but the cops came out and they are taking it to investigate...guess we'll find out soon. We could have a lawsuit against coke HAHA (jk)!

Tomorrow I am thinking about going for a run up to the store just to get out and get a little excersize...keep my legs active as they've really been killing me lately. Me and Mike are gonna cook out tomorrow. The weather is finally starting to look up and we're gonna take advantage of it while we can. Jeri wants to start walking too to try and loose weight but has to wait until her sons wrestling season is over in April.

Anywho that's my day and my plans for tomorrow. I wrote a really good blog earlier this morning but as I was posting it it some how got lost...if it comes back to me I'll post it.

3-28-08

I am sort of surprised to say that today was a great day. This morning I woke up took a shower grabbed the caffiene and hopped online before work to check messages. Mama gomer gave me a link to her and auntie gomers videos and I was brave enough to watch them before work. You know it's sort of weird...most people probably wouldn't find them funny...and I am not sure what exactly is so funny but those two trip me out!

I head into work and gave everyone a good morning...as I past Tara I could resist but to say Good morning old lady LOL. (As yesterday she took my compliment as an insult to her age) She was still having a laugh about that today going around telling everyone and anybody. The day was fairly slow and I was running out of things to do. I cleaned the whole front end and did some facing as my main projects for the day. I surprised myself at how much I really remembered as I ran across a couple of issues myself but was able to fix it without calling a manager...and I was also able to help the 3:30 chick that came in...don't ask me her name...I have no idea lol.

Anywho my lil 5 year old buddy came in today, Riley. OMG I love this kid she's absolutely adorable with her blonde hair and blue eyes. She came in with her grams and saw me and her eyes lit up. It's the first time she's seen me since I've come back. Well I said hi to her and honest to God she puts her hands on her hips and says you left me and my mommy and didn't tell us bye we didn't know where you were I'll talk to you when I am ready. My jaw just hit the floor and I couldn't help but giggle and just say yes ma'am! Well she was getting a jump rope and I always had her her goodies back when I ring them up...but I just held onto it this time. She just gave me this funny look like hey that's mine...then said ok ok hi now can I have it? LOL I love kids they are so funny and really brighten my day.

I managed to get out on time today WITH a Caramello bar in hand yummy!!! I have to make a few phone calls. Grams isn't doing too good and is really starting to worry me *sigh*. I gotta call mama D back she was busy last night singing at the homeless shelter, and I gotta call my mom back. It was a really good day and I have been so blessed by what most would see as just 'little things'. It's the little things that are over looked sometimes and under estimated. Look for blessings in your life and keep in mind that, big blessings can come in small packages!

God's Blessings

After a stressful day coming home and ranting and raving about it in my post...I must say God has brought me at peace. I admit work was hard...I was a bit irritated with people coming into work but then hanging out in the break room instead of getting to work. In the last 2 hours I've completely come at peace and this is how and why.

1. I received a reply from mama D and a few things came up that I had no idea she was feeling. After a few tears and deep breaths...I began to feel better. I miss her so much and love her more than I believe anyone will ever know. She really helped me a lot of times...and if she could have...she would have locked me away so nothing bad would ever happen to me. When I told her I was leaving town she just seemed not to care and I was a bit hurt...but that was talked about too. Things make sense now...I am glad we're talking again like we used to...I can't wait to see her again.

2. Emily got online this evening after I got home and I got to talk to her for a bit again. Although it was mostly me talking about Donna's email...I enjoy just spending time with her. I am so thankful that she's always there to listen to me and lend a shoulder when I need it. She always seems to put a smile on my face at the perfect times....I hope I do the same for her.

3. After I sent my reply back to Donna and said farewell to Emily...I went into praise and worship. Something that totally hit the spot. The love I felt from my 'family' and friends was awesome...but to feel it from God as well...PRICELESS!!! I spent about an hour just singing out praises to him and thanking him for the day all the good and the bad and helping me get through it. A God...our God...my God...would take the time to sit down beside me and let me cry on his shoulder and relieve myself of all the stress from the day.

I have to admit...I have some of the greatest friends ever. From near to far spread through out the whole country...some I have grown up with some I have grown close to. Some I have had sleep overs with...some I have only dreamed of meeting. In the end they are all the same with unconditional love and always there for me when I need it. I say I have a lot of best friends they're all too great to just name one of them the best. But I do indeed have a best friend, his name is Jesus. He's the ultimate and spends everyday with me. Sometimes he feels near sometimes he feels so far away due to overwhelming feelings of the day. He raised me from a babe and always had His hand guiding me towards his perfect will of my life. He has watched over me when I was awake and fast asleep, as I dream of the day when I will be with Him in paradise as he promised me.

I am so blessed to have the friends I do and to have God still standing by my side. I thought he would have given up on me a long time ago, but he never has and never will. He is my strength when I am weak He is the treasure that I seek, He is my all in all!

3-27-08

Omg...if there has ever been a stressful day...today was the day. My day did start out pretty good though. I had messages in my inbox from Donna K, Donna L who claims to be my seregant mother, like 5 of my gomer pals on facebook and to top it all off...I actually got to talk to Emily for about 15 minutes on yahoo this morning before work. I was happy all was grand. I arrive at work and it's a truck day...I just stayed focused but did try to slow down a little today. I worked with Tara most of the day putting the load away and such. I learned how to do the magazines for the first time and what a pain in the butt!

About 2 pm rolls around I have an hour and a half to get 2 more crates put away, movies checked in, lottery done, drawer organized and station cleaned. I knew I was running out of time and wouldn't make it. I tried to stay calm Tara came by noticing I was stressing out b/c it wasn't all done and told me to just breathe and take it easy that it'd be ok. So I tried to take her advice...I open the last crate and get off easy as there was no slip inside for me to check everything off. 1 down and 4 to go...I cleaned up one area and rushed over to start getting the movies done...keep in mind an hour has already passed by. People kept coming in and I kept getting side tracked...I just couldn't do it alone. I began to give up slowly knowing there was no way I was gonna get it all done. I managed to catch a break and got the movies checked in half way...but no big deal night people can find the cards and put them away.

I put my sign out at 3:30 on the dot to try and rush to get my lottery done and my actual work station cleaned up. Half way in the middle of me doing my lottery another line backs up and the other chick freaks out and calls for help...meanwhile Eric (manager) takes my sign down and calls people over...and here comes 5 more people down my lane. I couldn't believe it...I just wanted to scream. I turned and looked at Eric and told him to get a drawer that I was leaving. He seemed agitated that I told him my shift was up...but that's not my fault. I finished getting the line down closed out lottery did a quick clean up and ran out the door not bothering to organize my drawer. On my way out the door hearing 3 people calling out my name and I said nuh uh leave a message at the beep Tracey has left the building!

I am sooooo glad tomorrow is Friday. I love it when I have things to do to keep me busy...but when I can't finish out my day I really take it hard on myself. Something I have to work on...it's just me. My managers tell me not to worry about it that they'll take care of it that I did enough for the day...but every morning I go in I set a standard on all I want to get done and if I don't get it done then I feel horrible and like I have failed. Anywho that's another story for another time. Thank God tomorrow is Friday!

Long Day

Ok so this morning started ok...^^this^^ is what I looked like before work. I thought it'd be best NOT to watch mama and debbie on video again...the one day I could have used it. I had everything done at work by 9:15am and I was going completely outta my mind. There was NOTHING to do...and everyone is too poor to pay $3.15 a gallon for gas these days to go out.

You know what I hate? I really hate middle aged tattle tales...I sworny!!! One of the chick that I work with hates my guts for some reason...if I stop moving for 1 second she runs off and tells a manager and it drives me absolutely mad. The funny thing that some don't know is that we all watch either others back...so I had a heads up on what she was doing and knew it was just a matter of time before Wayne came out. In the end of random banter...we ended it all off in laughs and me on break.

I was invited by the girls to go play bingo on tuesday nights...I must say I got that 'childish girly excitement' going in me for only a brief moment. I haven't played bingo since my grams...she was the only one I ever played with. I feel if I play bingo without her...it sort of takes away a special moment between me and grams, so I've yet decided if I am going to join the girls night out.

I walked home from work today with beautiful weather...a bit windy but all in all good. It's so funny the little things that God can show us...through the littelest people. There were quite a few kids out in the neighborhood playing basketball, lacross and little 'contest' on who can jump the highest and run the fastest. I noticed that as I walked by and they noticed me coming...every one of them began to 'show off' a bit...as though there was something to prove to me...a passing stranger. They ended up making more mistakes and becoming a bit embarrased. I just laughed it off and kept going...as I was crossing through the park to the complex...it dawned on me, I too do the same everyday. When Randy or Wayne comes around especially I try to move a little faster do things a tad bit better than I would if they weren't around. Don't get me wrong I do my job to the fullest...but there's always a little more...that 'special touch' you can add. I wonder how 'foolish' and how many more mistakes I actually make when I try to speed things up and add the 'special touch' to things. A simple lesson in just being yourself!

Day wasn't THAT bad I suppose...^^this^^ is how I turned out at the end. Umm yeah I am definitely glad the day is over!

Day started out pretty good. I woke up at 6:30 showered and grabbed the caffiene. Decided I'd chill out online for a little bit before work. Never knowing that that was my first wrong move of the day! So I get on and run across mama gomer's facebook profile...I was still moving a bit slow and needed a boost...so I watched THE VIDEO again. That's right the hot sauce mama and debbie crack me up so bad video. Well it did it's job...TOO much. I sworny every Tom, Dick, Harry and Jane bought hot sauce today and I couldn't stop laughing to save my life. I tried to hold it in...but then I'd see mama's face go 10 shades red and hear Debbie saying I think mama needs a moment of meditation and privacy. So everyone saw me making weird faces and turning red as I was trying to hold my laughter in...it was HORRIBLE. Like they don't think I am a big enough freak anyway. I had a great day though...a little laughter never killed anyone lol.

The day was really hectic and fast pace...I didn't even take a lunch break till 2 today. I didn't wanna stop work I felt I was falling behind I had so much I wanted to get done. Wayne finally came up to me and told me ENOUGH lol. That's pretty sad when your manager forces you to take a break lol. Good news...I got everything done today so I feel accomplished. Things are still going really well. Although Wayne and Tara can't stop picking on me to save their lives...I have an awesome time bantering back and forth with them lol.

I got an email from an old ummm 'rival' last night and this morning. Someone I know from another chat room and well we just never got along. I am not really sure why but she asked if she could speak with my privately and gave me her msn addy. I am sort of anxious to see what she has to say. I haven't been to that chat in a while...and only recently been in as one of the mods told me a lot of people were asking about me. I hope whatever it is she has to say is better than things thats been said in the past...we'll see.

Anywho that was my day...ready to just relax and go goof off with my gomer pals on the 3d boards. Tomorrow is a new day...new obstacles...with new ways to make a fool of yourself!