Decemberadio

I wish I could say this trip was PERFECT...but not quite...once again I'll get all the bad out then tell the only part that truly matters. 2 hour drive in the worse Minneapolis MN traffic ever, 2 detours, 1 wreck (not us), 3 traffic jams, our names were not on the guest list, didn't get to personally meet and greet the band AND going back out to our truck in the parking ramp someone had opened the back of our truck. Good news we don't think anything was stolen.

Ok now on to the good stuff. IF FLIPPIN ROCKED OUR FACES OFF!!! So like we get there and this was our first time ever at club 3 degress, I wish we lived closer because it's just an AWESOME place. We were worried that we wouldn't be able to see good because it was general admission. Dude we were like 20 feet from the stage I am not even exaggerating. The place was so cool we all sat at tables...well were intended to anyway lol. Seven glory opened it up and it was really awesome a lot better than I expected them to be, I didn't realize who they were till they sung their last song that I already forgot lol. Ruth came out and they did an awesome job too Mike liked them both but liked Ruth more. Sevenglory's drummer won me over though OMG that dude was maaaaaad, looked like a monkey on the drums.

Josh Reedy comes out on the stage just for a moment and speaks of compassion international and dude when he got on stage the place went crazy! Oh and dude REWIND! When the DR boys came in the club they walked right behind me to get to the back room when I saw them I think my heart stopped! :-o Ok so after speaking of compassion this tennessee redneck comes out named Billy Wayne and this dude was a trip! He was so flippin funny! He spoke about being who we are in Christ and not being afraid to stand up and face our giants. He briefly told his testimony and there were a lot in tears it was just amazing. At one point he said, there's some girls who feel they're never good enough for their mom they just never add up, never get the love they've always craved. Then said...There's some 40 year olds that feel the same to their fathers and just want to hear I am proud of ya and I love ya. That's when I lost it I really felt like God was speaking to me and Mike and I praise God Mike picked up on it too. The message was so powerful and I truly pray for Billy and his ministry.

Then this band Decemberadio comes out and I don't know why everyone was so excited they weren't THAT great. *rolleyes* Sarcasm is really not my best feature LOL. OMG they were so flippin awesome!!! You like their cd's??? That is NOTHING compared to live the place went craaaazy! They opened up with Believer and I sworny I am not sure who you could hear more the crowd or Josh...throughout the whole thing! They also played, Least of these, Gasoline, Find you waiting, Drifter, Everlasting Love (yeh that one through me lol), a little amazing grace, Love found me, Satisfied and I may be forgetting one or two. It was just absolutely AMAZING!!! I can NOT wait to go back. Mike really enjoyed it and didn't even wanna leave. Boone had one heck of a funny drum solo, that dude just trips me out. I was watching Lovelace close and making sure that hair of his didn't go flying off...I tell ya that dude has the most awesomeness hair ever! Yes awesomeness is a word Josh Reedy said so! :-p So yeh, it was just well...awesomeness lol. I don't know if there's even enough words to describe it, you just gotta see it for yourself. Pictures are on facebook, not that great you will see how crappy my camera is. If you don't like it feel free to donate to my camera fund! Rock on and peace out guys!

Sweet Blessings

WARNING: This blog may contain too much love for the average person to handle. Reading this could result in an abundant feeling of love, self worth and appreciation.

I watched a movie today from Tyler Perry Collection titled: Madea Goes to Jail. Yes it's a comedy and there's a lot of good laughs in it, but I promise you there's a lot to learn from this collection of movies as well.

(When family is mentioned I would hope most of you would know by now it's in reference to my 'miracle family') It gave me a greater appreciation and love for my family. It reminded me of some things I have forgotten. Some say that God is all we need, we you get really technical about it and break it all down, yes I agree with that. I also believe though that we NEED our family and friends, hence why God places certain people in our lives. I believe most of us have a desire to be loved and appreciated by our families. Unfortunately, sometimes we're not always born into families that love and appreciate us the way we should. Now get this...I love and appreciate my BIOLOGICAL family more so today than yesterday. Yes, they have hurt me A LOT more than words can say, BUT without them I wouldn't be the person I am today and I wouldn't have been blessed with all that I have today. So here starts my list.

I am thankful for my biological family. I am thankful for all the hurt, abuse and neglect I went through the last 21 years. I am thankful for the opportunity to go through the experience I did in TN moving from home to home because I was seen as a 'problem child'. It was in those moments that I grew stronger, I gained a love that I was not expecting to gain. I lost a selfishness that I had, instead of gaining the love of a 'family' that I longed for so long...I GAVE a love that comes from deep within. I risked my life for others and without being there I would have never known or received the true gift of love. Being loved is an amazing thing it truly is...but I see now that maybe just maybe...we must be willing to love in order to have that love in return.

I am thankful for my husband that loves me in ways I never dreamed was possible from a man. A love that is true and pure. His support and encouragement that gets me through some of the toughest days. It's not always glorious rays of sunshine but I am thankful for the opportunity to love and grow together with him with each passing day.

I am thankful for my family that have opened my eyes to new horizons and possibilities. I am thankful for their wisdom that they share with me, no matter how bad it may hurt in the moment. I thank God for this new experience that we're about to take part in, that I may be edify and grow in the way He has designed for me. I am thankful for my my one TRUE friend of 10 years Jennifer Turnage that has never left my side regardless of the crap I went through. It's not always been a pretty scenery but she was willing to help me through it. I am thankful for the new friends I have met. Those that I argue our differences with and those that it just seems to always be so peaceful and bliss.

People come into our lives for a reason. Some are meant for a lifetime and some are meant just for a season. EVERYTHING happens for a reason and sometimes it takes a couple of years to find out exactly what that reason is. I am so thankful and blessed for my past and I thank God for all that I have today. James 1:2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds.

Here's a clip from the movie that I watched...it's sort of long but at least watch the first part before they start singing that is the most important part. Madea categorizes people in our lives as a tree. Whether they be a leaf, a branch or a root, thank God for all of it!

Sisterly Love

So this morning I set out on a run with really one mission in mind...Get my sister a birthday card. I believe there and back may be a mile...maybe a little more. So I set out on my journey, ran to the market place and went in search for the perfect birthday card. I don't think I did half bad picking one out. So I go through check out and some 'old friends' I used to work with began the questioning.

Jamie: So why are you here?
Me: Needed to get my sister a birthday card.
Jamie: Where's Mike?
Me: At work
Jamie: So you ran all the way here for a card for your sister...why???
Me: Cause I love her and she's totally worth it. etc...
Jamie: Wow can I have her?
Me: Heeeeeeeeeeck NO!

Same thing happened at Subway. I was happy to be able to 'brag' on my sisters a little. Although technically I just met them a couple months ago...I love both of them dearly and am proud of both of them. So I suppose I dedicate this blog to both of my wonderful sisters. I love yall.

No Longer Christian

Those that read this blog is probably one of the 5 that have sent me personal messages asking what the heck is going on. First of all I want to thank you for not ripping my head off and condemning me to hell because I made the statement. Now on to why I said that. PLEASE NOTE: I KNOW NO ONE IS PERFECT!!!

Last night I had a great night at work I was ready to go home and have a good talk with my mom and the rest of the family. Well I thought I'd unwind a little bit before calling her so I decided to check my emails and such. I will not go into everything that was said who said what or whatever. This blog is not directed at anyone but if you feel that it is, maybe you should take it to heart.

I am tired of people claiming to be CHRISTIAN and yet the only thing they have to say is to put someone down. I am tired of people claiming to be CHRISTIAN and yet they feel they are of some higher power and have no room to learn anything new for themselves. I am tired of people claiming to be CHRISTIAN and yet show no compassion towards others. I am tired of being CHRISTIAN! I no longer want to be associated with the group. So from this point on I will no longer claim to be a CHRISTIAN, instead I will be a Christ follower.

Yes, a christian is suppose to be a Christ follower. People today have given their own meaning to what a christian is or what it's suppose to be. Using the term christian would be fine if people actually acted as Christ. No we're not perfect...but I've been told some really hurtful things over the years by those that claim to be CHRISTIAN. We all serve the same God so why must our views be so different???? I don't care about denominations...God is God and He left us a book of instructions on how we're to live our life. Yes, people will interpret it differently according to their lives but I am talking about the basics here people. LOVE!!! Love your God...Love your neighbor...Love your enemies...on and on it's all about LOVE!!! It's not always easy but when we do it, He'll bless our 'stinking socks off' (as Bart Millard would say it).

There's life and death in the tongue. For the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart and this makes a man unclean. Our tongue is (in my opinion) our most powerful tool. How do you choose to use your tongue?? I thank God for those that I have in my life that are there to lift me up when I am down and show me different perspectives on things, because I don't know it all by far. I thank God for those that show me love unconditionally. I thank God I have people like my mom and dad and even my aunt shoo shoo that will always take me back to the basics and remind me of God's truth.

For those that have done nothing but say hurtful things and tear me down, I am sorry but I can't take it any more and those people will be deleted. More than likely they're not even reading this but in case you are...this is good bye. This is a time in my life where I need to be edified and honestly how I feel if you're not edifying then why should I be around you anyway? I've tried to show love, mercy and kindness and if nothing changes...why should I stay and continue to be hurt? I love you all...friends or not...I honestly do and I'll continue to pray for you. Thanks for showing me the difference of being a Christ follower and being a Christian.

To my fellow stalkers

For those that obviously are still following me around...here's your note. I am glad you're so enthused and interested in my life that you continue to follow me around. I hope you can see how well I am doing now and how much God is blessing me. Although most of you put me through hell in back in more ways than you even know...thank you. It's made me a better person at least someone benefitted from it. Read my blogs if you want, maybe one day you'll allow God to minister to you. Continue with your negative/harrassing comments and I'll make sure that you are completely blocked off and not allowed to leave any comments. It's time to move on...I have and so should you.

~Daddys_lil_girl~

Hello Beautiful!

For those that talk to me on a daily basis, they know that I usually greet them with some sort of 'encouraging' view. Such as Hello Beautiful, Gorgeous, Sunshine, Love face...I think you get the point. I have some beautiful friends inside and out. Some of them with an inner beauty so illuminate that's all you can see.

I am usually fairly good at self confidence. I don't think I am drop dead gorgeous and I don't think I am ugly. I always try to see myself in God's mirror. But as I looked in the mirror this morning all saw my reflection in MY mirror. Was not a pretty site I seemed pale, black under my eyes and my face pretty badly broken out. I can't tell you how many times I looked in the mirror today and just wanted to cry.

I didn't feel of worth or beauty today. I am not even sure why, tomorrow is a new day but I wanted to share how I felt today; that's the purpose of blogging after all right?

All I Want For Christmas

I know I know it's only October, but before you know it Christmas will be here. Along with that age old question you're bound to hear 400 billion times, What do you want for Christmas? Please Note: I do not want hate mail coming to me saying Christmas is not about gifts it's about Jesus...I know that! So just relax and don't think so much. ;-)

Since I was 12 years old all I wanted for Christmas was a family to call my own. One that wanted me for who I was and it was that year that my parents told me to go find other parents. Day in and day out I prayed and searched for someone that would take me in. Well here I am 9 years later and I finally have what I always wanted for Christmas.

So for those that are just so stinking nice and want to send packages out, I can't stop you. But I do want you all to know that I have all I want for Christmas. Although they are in TX they are still very close to my heart and they're all mine...well you know what I mean lol. I know next year I'll be able to spend Christmas with them personally as we will have been moved and everything.

All I wanted for Christmas was a family took my 9 years to get what I always wanted, but the best things in life are worth waiting for. I pray you all have a blessed merry Christmas and truly get what your heart desires, whether it be something physical or something a little more sentimental like mine. Always remember, Jesus is the reason for the season and He is the ultimate one that gives you the desires of your heart; no matter what the return address may say. ;-)